This past weekend I ran the Parkway Classic. A local race that runs from Mt. Vernon Estates into Old Town Alexandria. It was 10 miles. I am no newbie to running. I started in 2009 and have been running races since. I am a forever member of the turtle club, but I keep putting myself out there to keep trying.
I have a confession to make though, I have a TERRIBLE attitude. It sometimes gets so bad, my boyfriend won’t even run with me. I start to get down on myself. Like REALLY down on myself.
- I suck
- Why do I even try
- This is stupid, I’ll never amount to anything
- it’s an embarrassment that I’m even running
- Don’t even waste your time running with me I’ll ruin everything for you.
YUP. That’s what goes on in my head. I hate that I’m a slow runner. 10:00 – 12:00 pace depending on the date, distance, or my mood.
I was DETERMINED, for this 10 Miler, to keep a happy and positive outlook on everything; regardless of the turnout. I started out with what worked for me, and stuck to it. Alex ran with me the whole time. We kept a 10:29 pace.
It didn’t hurt that it was a BEAUTIFUL day. Perfect weather: sunny, warm, slight breeze. It also didn’t hurt that none of my injuries acted up and I was actually able to run the whole thing without stopping. It’s easy to keep a good mood. BUT, I am also the person who would finish and be mad at herself for not doing better.
I’m not saying I won’t get upset or disappointed or angry in the future, but I’m saying I will put everything into keeping the right mood and frame of mind. It’s all just for fun, for a cardio workout, and to get some fresh air. Time to finish doesn’t matter for anything. The finishers medal doesn’t say what place you’re in, it says you ran 10 Freaking Miles!! That’s awesome!
So if you’re like me, join me in having a brighter outlook moving forward. I know it will be worth it!