When I was a little girl, I had severe social anxiety.  I didn’t even like leaving the house to go to friends or family’s houses.  The idea of having to leave home, where I felt so safe and comfortable, tore me apart.

Eventually, I started to grow out of this.  Over time, I realized that I could leave the house and have fun, still be safe, and come back home.  It took YEARS to get to this point. And then next thing I knew I was on a plane to London for college.  I have been traveling and going on adventures ever since.  So many people that knew me then say how drastically I’ve changed.

Anxiety is a sneaky little bastard though, coming back and getting us when we least expect.  Recently, I booked a trip across country to visit some friends. I was so excited! And then, all of a sudden, I felt the tightness in my chest. I didn’t want to have to get on that plane and leave.  It was the oddest feeling. Why now, all of a sudden, do I get so nervous about leaving the house again? I have a big benefit this time, I’ve been through this before!  I’ve been able to leave the house for years and see that I’m ok.

I’m trying to be more proactive this time – If you haven’t already looked into Bex Life you should.  Her guided meditations are amazing!  I’ve found that just re-centering myself is a great reminder that everything is fine.

If you’ve ever suffered from anxiety, you’ve probably gone through a relapse similar to me.  It’s not easy, but the important thing is to figure out how to calm and center yourself to get through it.  I just booked two more trips, and even though I can feel anxiety creeping up, I know I have to push those thoughts to the side, and focus on the fun I’ll have instead!

Keep fighting the fight!

-bb

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